Last year was tough, but this year brought so many changes. I finally left KL and found myself a better job. I said goodbye to the house I rented for almost three years and chose a smaller city - slower days, softer nights, less hustle and noise.A place where I'm learning to breathe again, to grow differently, and to feel like myself. 

For now, my only colleague is Nanie. Which is more than enough. It means no work drama and no toxic environment. As a bonus, we’re able to manage our own schedule. 

I even got myself a cute ride to work . It’s a three-year commitment. I’m genuinely happy… except there isn’t much to do here. Nothing too exciting, nothing spontaneous.

I have a boyfriend who takes me out every week. We go wherever we want, and sometimes we’re perfectly content staying home. 

Most days now look the same: I go to work, come home, talk to him on the phone, then sleep. Not to mention, he loves horror movies. Sometimes we watch three different horror movies in a week, staying up until 1 a.m. For me, it’s usually 2 or 3 am unless I’m too tired. I’ll sleep earlier. 

And if I’m being honest, sometimes I feel bored. Like I haven’t fully learned how to normalize this change yet. I miss seeing my friends or enjoying a breezy walk at night. I miss going out to Pavilion or anywhere I wanted alone. 

I miss the feeling of being alone… but at the same time, I’m scared of being lonely. horror movies — sometimes we watch three in a week, staying up until 1 a.m. For me, it’s usually 2 or 3.

And if I’m being honest, sometimes I feel bored — like I haven’t fully learned how to normalize this change yet. I miss seeing my friends. I miss quiet night walks with the breeze brushing past me. I miss going to Pavilion or anywhere I wanted, alone, with no plans and no explanations.

I miss the feeling of being alone… but at the same time, I’m scared of being lonely.

, I even got myself a cute ride to work — a three-year commitment, but one that makes me smile. I’m genuinely happy… except there isn’t much to do here. Nothing too exciting, nothing spontaneous.

I have a boyfriend who takes me out every week. We go wherever we want, and sometimes we’re perfectly content staying home. Most days now look the same: I go to work, come home, talk to him on the phone, then sleep. He loves horror movies — sometimes we watch three in a week, staying up until 1 a.m. For me, it’s usually 2 or 3.

And if I’m being honest, sometimes I feel bored — like I haven’t fully learned how to normalize this change yet. I miss seeing my friends. I miss quiet night walks with the breeze brushing past me. I miss going to Pavilion or anywhere I wanted, alone, with no plans and no explanations.

I miss the feeling of being alone… but at the same time, I’m scared of being lonely.

to feel like myself.

me out every week. We went anywhere we wanted, but sometimes we also chill at home. Most days now, I go to work, go home, hang out with him on the phone, and sleep. Not to mention that he loves horror movies. Sometimes we watch three horror movies in a week and stay up until 1 a.m. For me, 2 or 3 a.m.

Not gonna lie, sometimes I do feel bored for not normalizing the changes, for not seeing my friends, or enjoying a breezy walk at night. I miss going out to Pavilion or anywhere I wanted alone. I miss the feeling of being alone, but at the same time, I’m scared to be lonely.

myself a cute ride to work. I’m paying for it for 3 years. I’m pretty happy, except there’s nothing much or exciting to do here. I have a boyfriend who would always take me out every week. We went anywhere we wanted, but sometimes we also chill at home. Most days now, I go to work, go home, hang out with him on the phone, and sleep. Not to mention that he loves horror movies. Sometimes we watch three horror movies in a week and stay up until 1 a.m. For me, 2 or 3 a.m.

Not gonna lie, sometimes I do feel bored for not normalizing the changes, for not seeing my friends, or enjoying a breezy walk at night. I miss going out to Pavilion or anywhere I wanted alone. I miss the feeling of being alone, but at the same time, I’m scared to be lonely.