I found out you got married last month.

I tried so hard to hold back my tears, but that night… I surrendered. I cried again, maybe for the last time.


I spent the entire night questioning myself, questioning life.

How could someone who felt like an angel be the reason my heart broke so deeply?


While I was trying to become the best version of myself, I kept wondering… was I never enough?

Or maybe the way I loved you was too quiet to earn your trust.


And somehow, the hardest part wasn’t losing you..

it was accepting that the future I prayed for now belongs to someone else.

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